So I just discovered a new tool to help women everywhere. Her name is Goddess Leonie and she has created a beautiful website called Goddess Guide Book.com. I'll put a link at the bottom of this post and there is also a button on the left hand side of my page that says "I'm a creative goddess." It will take you to her page also. Anyways, I have been working on the 2010 Guide Book and after a lot of thinking, I have decided to sign up for one of her e-courses. I feel like with all the stress of planning for the baby I need to reconnect with myself a little bit. I signed up for the Creative Goddess course and I am really excited to get going on it.
Today I want to share part of my journey though the guide book. I will update about the Guide Book and also about the e-course after I get going on that.
The first part of the Guide Book is letting go of 2009. 2009 was a tough year for me but I learned a lot of lessons. In 2009 I am proud of myself for making my relationship with Will work, keeping my job for over a year and being a in semi-management position, reconnecting with my mom, removing myself from toxic environments, letting go, starting to rebuild myself and my self esteem, and learning how to love in a more positive way.
I want to let go of feeling of insecurity, fear of not being good enough, fear in general, anxiety over the future and over things I cannot control, and the need to procrastinate when I get scared.
I learned a lot about myself in 2009. For example, I learned that I can do anything with the right support.
Obviously I don't want to share everything that I have written, but I do want to share my experience with everyone. I think that tomorrow I will post about what I want to get out of 2010.
So on with the update. We are having a boy. Will is bouncing off the walls and so am I. We don't have a lot of boys in my family so this is a new adventure for everyone. When we went for the sonogram everything looks good except for possibly a hole in Peanut's heart. We couldn't tell if it's a shadow or a hole. A hole would mean that it will finish developing and it will seal itself up, it will remain but will only cause a heart murmur (which my dad and grandpa both have), or the worst case, Peanut will have to have heart surgery. I'm trying not to stress, but it's hard. We will find out what is going on next month at another sonogram so I am praying that there is nothing there.
Ok, so this was a huge update, but I know you guys love me. I love you also.
Have a good week everyone.