Saturday, August 21, 2010

I'm Not Ready for This

This summer has been the Summer of change for me. I had my son in May, then lost my job at the beginning of August and now am opening my own shop. This Summer has been filled with so many blessings, even ones that were in disguise.

As I write this, I know that in 9 hours I will be sitting in a classroom and this Summer will be over for me. At this point, I am genuinely distraught because I don't want it to end. The end means spending at least 2 hours away from Peanut everyday and it breaks my heart. I really don't know how mom's that have to put their children in daycare for 8 hours a day do it. I wish so badly that I didn't have to leave him, but tomorrow morning, I do.

To top everything off, we have thrush again so neither of us feel terribly great. Also, my milk supply went down because I wasn't pumping as much lately, so they last few days I have been pumping a lot more and it is almost unbearable with the thrush, but I pretty much have to so that my supply stays up while I am away from Peanut.

Does anyone have any advice to make this easier? Even just a little? I would appreciate it.



  1. Don't forget that you have lots of friends and family to call on and count on. Don't hesitate to do so!

  2. you are totally right about daycare.... it's really hard i took my son out and made it work

    i wish i could give you some advice but can't sorry!

    BUT i did give u blog award YAY

  3. For the thrush: have you tried plain yogurt? As long as you wipe it off before you nurse there shouldn't be any side effects for Peanut and it could clear things up better.

    As far as being away from him? As mom's, we often have to do things we don't want to do. Leaving our babies (at that age particularly) is usually high on the list. It's a rough adjustment but 2 hours isn't too bad, really. Both of you will do just fine!

  4. Are you both getting treated for the thrush? If not, you should right away! Home remedies like wiping your nipples with vinegar after nursing or exposing them to sunlight are helpful in addition to medication.

    I have heard a little olive oil in the pump horns makes it less painful, but I haven't tried it myself.