Friday, August 12, 2011
Things I Know - I'm a Hot Mess
It’s time for Things I Know with Shae from Yay! For Home.
I know a lot of things, but mostly what I know is that I’m discouraged.
At work I feel like I’m not making a difference. Our breastfeeding rates have not improved which is the whole point of us being here.
The people that monitor the numbers are stupid. Apparently if you give ANY amount of formula in the hospital you are considered not breastfeeding. So those moms that get really ill or have their tubes tied or have complications and their babies are given maybe 2oz of formula and then only breastfed after that, they are not counted.
I am a terrible lactivist because I didn’t write a post for World Breastfeeding Week. There isn’t a valid excuse for this except that I am discouraged and didn’t feel like thinking about breastfeeding anymore than I had to.
My house is a disaster and I cannon catch up. I’m slightly pissy because Psycho Knight took off a few extra days this week because he had emergency time that he needed to burn and yet, he hasn’t cleaned shit.
I still think I’m depressed. All I want to do is sleep. I’m not eating anything except for lunch and that’s just because I’m at work and everyone else is eating so I should be too. I’m just all around not feeling well and nothing is helping get me out of my funk.
On a happy note, I am going to pick up our new cat tonight after work. Her name is La Vida…I think we will be renaming her. I’m really excited because I’ve wanted to get a cat for the longest. I will post pictures of her tomorrow.
I start therapy on Monday and I’m actually starting to get excited about it. I think that it will help me a lot more this time around. PK is going with me so I don’t have to do it alone.
You shouldn’t read this post, it’s horribly depressing.