Sometime You Have to Talk About the Hard Stuff

Psycho Knight and I are getting fairly serious; I'll probably be moving in with him sometime in the next few months. When you have a child with someone other than the man you are dating there are a lot of logistics to deal with. When someone wants to be with me they have to also want to be with my son, we're a package deal.

So what are these logistics I speak of? Well first off the co-sleeping thing. We are working on transitioning Peanut into his own bed because it is unfair to expect PK to go from sleeping alone to sleeping with me and a baby; and I'm assuming that it would make Will uncomfortable to know that another man is sharing a bed with his kid. The next on the logistics list is that Peanut has to have a room when we move in. That means not only am I moving in and taking over part of the house, but he loses a whole room also. These aren't all that major for PK and I to deal with, these are the easy tasks to manage.

The harder ones are not so black and white. I have no idea what role PK will play in Peanut's life. Assuming we get married, PK will be Peanut's step-dad, but what should the kid call PK? Should he be called by his first name, maybe a name alternative for dad? I just really have no idea. What about discipline? Will and I do not spank and I will not allow PK to spank my child, but to what extent will PK be an authority figure?

I know all of this depends on how quickly things progress and what happens with Will. All of this really scares me though, I'm afraid that we will totally fuck with this child's mind and he will never really understand how relationships and families work.

Swt

I Love College...and Babies...

Yup, I forgot Flog Yo Blog Friday again. I'm a terrible person.

So anyways, it's hard being a mom and being a student. It's estimated that for every hour in class you should be doing 3 hours of homework. I am in class for 9 hours a week, so that is 27 hours of homework a week. That is a lot! I don't mind because it is worth it in the end, but right now it kind of sucks.

It would be so much worse if I wasn't living with my parents. They play with Peanut while I do my work and study. Bu I still can never seem to get caught up on everything.

Right now my room and Peanut's rooms and our bathroom is a complete disaster and the laundry is behind. I need to take a day and get everything done so that I can go back to maintaing our space instead of trying to play constant game of catch up.

Even my school is going as well as it should. I am making pretty good grades, but not as good as I could be doing. I just totally fucked up a psychology test. I am good at psychology, I just never got around to doing the reading, if I had I could have had this. I am giving math my best shot and I got 100% on my first 3 quizzes, 80% on the fourth one and then I got a C on my first test. The first one is the hardest so I think it should be ok. History is just random and my teacher has sever women issues. He always manages to make a snide remark about females. But his tests are pretty easy so it's not a huge deal. My online humanities class is easy. I can get all of the work for the week done in just a couple of hours, now I just have to start doing it before 9:30 Tuesday night when it is due at 12.

So that is how my school life is going.

Just a little update on Peanut. He has eaten avocado, white beans, banana, and potatoes. He is doing really well with solids and he refuses to eat cereal which is fine with me, there really isn't a lot of nutritional value in there. So that's it for now.