It never fails, every time I drop Peanut off in the morning and go to school, I want to cry. I know that I am going to school for my future and for his; i keep telling myself that and it helps most of the time. But it still breaks my heart just a little bit everyday.
So on Monday I knew that I needed some adult time with friends, I asked Will to watch Peanut and I headed over the Dizzy's. The entire time I was there I couldn't stop thinking about Peanut and how I missed him. And I felt guilty that I was out having "fun" without him when I needed to be spending time with him.
I know that having time to be an adult and not have to worry about Peanut is important. I needed the break from being a mom, thinking about school, and the general stress that I am under.
I'm going to a couple of Halloween parties on Saturday and Peanut is staying with Will so that they can have some more time together. I don't know how well I will deal with feeling guilty. There has been a lot of stress and drama this week and I haven't really been to a party since I got pregnant. I feel like I deserve it.
In a little update: Will and I are no longer together. I can't let this play out online, so I am not providing details right now. There have been issues with our relationship for a long time and it was time to end it before things could get uglier. I am really stressed out right now with school and trying to get caught up at home and with Will. I haven't slept more than about 10 hours total in the last couple of days and I gave myself a plugged duct. So I need to slow way the hell down and relax a little.
That's all I've got guys.
<3 Swt
Showing posts with label College. Show all posts
Showing posts with label College. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
I Love College...and Babies...
Yup, I forgot Flog Yo Blog Friday again. I'm a terrible person.
So anyways, it's hard being a mom and being a student. It's estimated that for every hour in class you should be doing 3 hours of homework. I am in class for 9 hours a week, so that is 27 hours of homework a week. That is a lot! I don't mind because it is worth it in the end, but right now it kind of sucks.
It would be so much worse if I wasn't living with my parents. They play with Peanut while I do my work and study. Bu I still can never seem to get caught up on everything.
Right now my room and Peanut's rooms and our bathroom is a complete disaster and the laundry is behind. I need to take a day and get everything done so that I can go back to maintaing our space instead of trying to play constant game of catch up.
Even my school is going as well as it should. I am making pretty good grades, but not as good as I could be doing. I just totally fucked up a psychology test. I am good at psychology, I just never got around to doing the reading, if I had I could have had this. I am giving math my best shot and I got 100% on my first 3 quizzes, 80% on the fourth one and then I got a C on my first test. The first one is the hardest so I think it should be ok. History is just random and my teacher has sever women issues. He always manages to make a snide remark about females. But his tests are pretty easy so it's not a huge deal. My online humanities class is easy. I can get all of the work for the week done in just a couple of hours, now I just have to start doing it before 9:30 Tuesday night when it is due at 12.
So that is how my school life is going.
Just a little update on Peanut. He has eaten avocado, white beans, banana, and potatoes. He is doing really well with solids and he refuses to eat cereal which is fine with me, there really isn't a lot of nutritional value in there. So that's it for now.
So anyways, it's hard being a mom and being a student. It's estimated that for every hour in class you should be doing 3 hours of homework. I am in class for 9 hours a week, so that is 27 hours of homework a week. That is a lot! I don't mind because it is worth it in the end, but right now it kind of sucks.
It would be so much worse if I wasn't living with my parents. They play with Peanut while I do my work and study. Bu I still can never seem to get caught up on everything.
Right now my room and Peanut's rooms and our bathroom is a complete disaster and the laundry is behind. I need to take a day and get everything done so that I can go back to maintaing our space instead of trying to play constant game of catch up.
Even my school is going as well as it should. I am making pretty good grades, but not as good as I could be doing. I just totally fucked up a psychology test. I am good at psychology, I just never got around to doing the reading, if I had I could have had this. I am giving math my best shot and I got 100% on my first 3 quizzes, 80% on the fourth one and then I got a C on my first test. The first one is the hardest so I think it should be ok. History is just random and my teacher has sever women issues. He always manages to make a snide remark about females. But his tests are pretty easy so it's not a huge deal. My online humanities class is easy. I can get all of the work for the week done in just a couple of hours, now I just have to start doing it before 9:30 Tuesday night when it is due at 12.
So that is how my school life is going.
Just a little update on Peanut. He has eaten avocado, white beans, banana, and potatoes. He is doing really well with solids and he refuses to eat cereal which is fine with me, there really isn't a lot of nutritional value in there. So that's it for now.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Yesterday Was Awesome
Goddess Leonie over at Goddess Guidebook has Switch Off Sunday every Sunday. Most of the time I don't do it, but yesterday I did. During SoS, you turn your computer off and spend sometime away from it. Well you may be asking what I did for my SoS. I went and saw The Bestie at school.
She is away at college and I have missed her like crazy. So since her family is lame and didn't go to family weekend, we did. My mom, our mutual friend J, Peanut and I went to see her.
It was a little over a 2 hour drive, but it was well worth it. We got to go to a beautiful church for worship, had lunch in the campus cafeteria, hung out in the dorm and then walked around town for awhile.
Peanut was already famous. Kay was holding him and someone walks up and says "Is that Peanut?!" It was so funny.
I hadn't realized how much I missed my best friend. I love her soooooo much and being with her all summer was great. I am hoping to get to go back out there sometime in October to surprise her again.
<3 Swt
Expect a post later about why I could never do the conventional college thing. Someone should probably remind me to write that.
She is away at college and I have missed her like crazy. So since her family is lame and didn't go to family weekend, we did. My mom, our mutual friend J, Peanut and I went to see her.
It was a little over a 2 hour drive, but it was well worth it. We got to go to a beautiful church for worship, had lunch in the campus cafeteria, hung out in the dorm and then walked around town for awhile.
Peanut was already famous. Kay was holding him and someone walks up and says "Is that Peanut?!" It was so funny.
I hadn't realized how much I missed my best friend. I love her soooooo much and being with her all summer was great. I am hoping to get to go back out there sometime in October to surprise her again.
<3 Swt
Expect a post later about why I could never do the conventional college thing. Someone should probably remind me to write that.
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